Come Down

[smescrater]

It is one of life’s inevitabilities in my opinion. Lows will always follow highs, highs will always follow lows. It’s all part of the cosmic balancing act. A karmic homeostasis if you will.

For me, the come down is three fold:

1. Work. I took the redundancy deal in the end, I found that at a certain level one simply cannot phone it in, and if I am truely not passionate about something, there really is no point doing it.
2. Relationships. At some point the honeymoon period wears off, and you have to look at things and start to put some work in to filing off the rough corners, applying some varnish and seeing if I can weather seal what’s happening.
3. GenCon. I’ve just had my yearly trip, and now more than ever I’m feeling resolute about working towards contributing to the gaming world. This year more than ever I have found it a wrench to remove myself from ‘the best four days in gaming’ and return to the ‘real’ world

1 and 3 are linked. I wish to get more involved with the geeky world along side what I do to start bringing in money again. I have the notion of a plan, however jetlag and a chest infection have robbed me of the energy to work on it. Thankfully I have support from an outplacement firm, and enough credits to ensure they keep me on the straight and narrow path.

2 I’m going to glass over for now, whilst I don’t mind exposing my psyche to the internet as a whole, I do not like to kiss and tell. What I can say is that there is a lot of pondering over tea right now and examining my position on things. It’s proving interesting as I’m finding I do have firm opinions on things, and there is a strong nugget of self care forming.

Moving swiftly on, I am not sure what to do with this blog I do think the focus is going to change and I shall be splitting things out somewhat. I have various ideas, and a crime I have been guilty of in the past is muddying the waters and trying to do everything in the same place. As I develop ideas and they start to take root, expect to see some branching out.

So, I’m still standing better than I ever did. Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid. I’m still standing after all this time. picking up the pieces of my life. (apologies to Sir Elton John for co-opting his fine lyrics!)

How have you all been?

 

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