I never could get the hang of Thursdays.

[smescrater]

There’s no other word for it, I’m just feeling meh right now.

• I’ve been out for a long walk, and that’s pretty much every day I’ve walked somewhere and a route of at least three kilometres.
• I’ve gone and voted and said that yes I want AV and I’d like to see FPTP relegated to the history books please.
• I’ve got a telephone interview lined up next week, and my CV has gone in for an interesting sounding project management gig.
• I’ve found someone who seems as interested in me as I am in them, which was a nice surprise.
• I’ve found a 99% match for me on OKCupid based in Manchester
• Hell, I even have Portal 2.

Yet, I also have a miasma of meh surrounding me right now.

• I didn’t get the pre-sales job, they went with someone with more active directory skills than I have.
• I have no idea what happened with the project management gig, those guys haven’t been back in touch since the debacle with the car.
• The Wife got her contract prematurely terminated.
• The Lady Misadventurer and I called it a day.

Talking to Satan(a pseudonym obviously, I take my metaphysical advice elsewhere. Hail Eris.), she commented that I should indulge myself and allow myself to feel the meh and process it that way. I do wonder if she may have a point. The reason being that I have things to do, plots to plot and plans to plan. The thing I cannot do is be overwhelmed by emotions and allow them to dictate my actions. I am finding it hard to meditate and be mindful right now for as much as I can accept my emotional state, it’s like an elephant squeezed into a small room and it’s pushing everything else out of place. Equally though, I cannot sit an dwell and over indulge myself on these emotions. I want to process things, put things back in their place, learn and move on. Doesn’t my emotional self know I have a world to dominate and a business to create?

I’m just not used to that though. I’m used to the other path where you push feelings down, ignore them and carry on regardless of the consequences of that. Actually taking some time to look after myself, comfort myself and allow myself to feel and work through the meh. As I said though, I just want to be getting on with things with a smile on my face and a spring in my step, I can live without this case of the glums.

I think tonight shall be having a nice wine, playing portal 2 and hitting refresh until my 99% match mails me back.

Allons-y!

 

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