Dealing with wibbling.

Again with the embloggination!

Today I must confess started with a wibble and not in a good way. Bean has decided that sleep is evil and must be avoided at all costs. This is being expressed as not going to sleep very easily and doing all he can to cry, wail, and try to fight visiting the land of nod. The flip side of this is waking at 4AM and deciding to fight sleep then too. This of course means that myself and Mrs.Misadventurer are having an interesting time of it.

I don’t know about any of you, but I find that a lack of sleep gets to me very quickly. I become confused, irrational, and downright paranoid. Hence, this morning starting with a wibble.

The wibble in question is around what to do next. I’m focussing on Bean at the moment, which is the right decision for me. However bills still need to be paid. and I’m not quite ready to start doing webcam shows from home to make ends meet. So I’ve been stressing about what to do and fixating on crashing and burning, ending up living in my car down by the canal eating garbage.

A mere 30 minutes and 750 words later I realised my problem. I was focusing on the wrong future.

When I had my motorcycle lessons, one of the most frequent lessons was ‘look where you want to go, the bike will follow’. This is true for life, look at the wrong thing and as sure as eggs is eggs, that’s where you’ll be. For me, this is the living in the car analogy, when instead I should be looking at any number of the bright shiny possibilities like starting a café, writing a book, and discovering the secret of Monkey Island).

The point I’m trying to make is that it’s too easy to become focussed on fear. Remembering that they’re only a possibility and I have the ability to avoid them completely or to mitigate them is an important exercise.

Hopefully this will be interesting or of some use to others. For me it’s a placeholder to remember to do it when things look tough.

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